Crone

January 9, 2012



I have all this new technology now and am slowly getting used to maintaining it. I figured out how to hook up my new phone to the bluetooth even if it did involve a visit to the Subaru dealership and one to the Verizon store. I also had to download an upgrade from my computer to the phone. When I told the kid at Verizon I wasn't sure I could do that he simply looked up at me and deadpanned ,"Yes, you can." And I did. And the phone works every time I get in the car!!!!


But alas, I'm not as savvy as I would like to believe. Josh and Jocelyn were here to partake of the Omaha steaks and wine I received for Christmas from my very generous friend. Josh commented that my computer was slow. Hilary chimed in that I left too many tabs open, etc... Josh said he would install something new. Crone, or so I thought he said. "Please don't mess with my computer. I know where everything is," I pleaded. Jocelyn said, "When you reach a certain age you need Crone." Did I hear her correctly? I know she is comfortable with me but comfortable enough to call me a crone? Do I look THAT old? I would have to seriously rethink my plastic surgery timeline.

But it's not crone, its Chrome. Google Chrome, whatever that is. And all my stuff is still there just like before. As Josh has said many times, "Mom, you really have no idea how the internet works, do you?" To which I reply, "No, that's why I have you!"

Hot Water

January 8, 2012



Yesterday I ran out of hot water. Not because I was running all the appliances and showering at the same time. But Hilary and I should be able to shower at the same time, right? I went downstairs with my LED flashlight to investigate. Uh oh, water on the floor near the hot water heater. I called Gino, my plumber. He was coming that afternoon to fix my bathroom toilet. He talked me through shutting off the valve on the heater and waited while I measured it and gave him the serial numbers. Then he ordered a new hot water heater and had it delivered in the afternoon.

I met Gino when he came to hook up the water line for my beautiful refrigerator. The one I still say good night to when I go to bed. Gino was another perk from that purchase. Anyway when he got here and went downstairs he said,"Is that all the water that came out?" Is there a requirement? I guess there is. He didn't think anything was wrong with the heater. After checking things out, flushing the line and fixing my toilet he went back down and declared the heater was fine. It may have just "run over." Then he started saying things about plumbing and upkeep I didn't understand. All I knew was that I had hot water again.

But now we had to get the heater up the stairs. I talked the strong young man who brought it to take it downstairs. Gino said he would return another day with help. "I can help you." After all I got the desk up the stairs with Josh and I am working on my upper body strength at the gym!! Well, we did bring it up one step at a time. I apologized for maybe over reacting but he was very gracious. Only charging me for the toilet and not the aggravation of the heater. And now I can do the laundry!!!

Sweet Lucy

January 7, 2012



I was in Amity Wine last week restocking my liquor cabinet and I came across a bourbon called Sweet Lucy. How apropos I thought. A word that would never be used to describe me no matter how hard I try! After I started a fire that evening I poured myself some. YUCK!!! I failed to read the entire label which described it as a bourbon based liqueur. I hate sweet drinks. But not one to waste things I drank it anyway.

I decided to give it a second chance. The next time I tried it was just as bad. I wasn't about to pour it down the sink so I thought about what I could add to it to cut the sweetness. I was never the drink maker when I was married. It was always a big production. I only use one other ingredient beside the actual liquor and that's ice. I decided to try a lemon wedge squeezed in the glass. Yeah!!! That did the trick! It provided just the tartness I needed. Maybe I SHOULD have consulted with my ex. He seems to be an expert when it comes to tarts. Sorry, couldn't resist.

So again, I vow to read all labels completely when I shop. Something I am very bad at doing as I am usually rushing from one place to the next. Not sure I will ever buy Sweet Lucy again but I WILL finish this bottle. Another learning experience.

Verizon and Me

January 4, 2012



Yesterday I went to the Verizon store to grovel for a new phone. My iPhone was not a global model and I was worried about traveling so far away without my own phone. I thought my upgrade was due in February and I was going to make my best pitch for them to give me the upgrade early. After all I was going on a medical mission, got divorced this year ( and as Mickel very kindly reminded me I only have about 170 days left for that excuse), I needed to check on my sister and stay in touch with my kids. I was even willing to shed a few tears if necessary.

But I didn't need any of that. It seems one number was due for an upgrade this month. I am now the proud owner of the iPhone 5!!! Although the new connection is different and I can't fit it on my speakers or figure out how to connect to my bluetooth I will be able to text and call from Thailand. I felt a huge relief. I actually leaned over the counter and said,"I love you, Dave!" ( Haven't said that in a long time!) Then he ruined the mood by asking all sorts of questions I couldn't answer. "When was the last time you upgraded the software?" "Do you use iCloud?" "Did you back up your apps?" I finally said ,"I have no idea what you're talking about." He patiently tried to explain but I only smiled and thought, "Josh will help me when I get home." Saying goodbye to my old phone was bittersweet. It had gotten me through a very tough year.

Now I have Siri although I'm not sure how I feel about her. But I am soooo happy to have a phone I can use on my trip. Isn't it great, kids? Even when I am half way around the world I'll be able to keep tabs on you!

Winter Blues

January 3, 2012



Now that the holidays are over I really don't want to look at the snow anymore. Snow is only pretty for a day or so and only if I don't have to worry about anyone driving in it. Also I don't want to look at any more Christmas decorations. As soon as the snow melts I'll be unplugging the outdoor lights. Every other vestige of Christmas is gone.

And it is soooo cold this week. I hate the cold. Every year at this time I wonder why I live in New England. But the thought of living down south never appealed to me and California is too far away. So I guess I'll have to put up with hibernation for a few more years. Thankfully I will be in Thailand for a few weeks to get me through the winter months. A few days of R&R at the Mandarin Oriental in Bangkok after the mission should get me through February and March!

Ahhh. February and March. Especially March. So depressing! Still cold, damp and dreary. And some people STILL have their decorations up. Why? Take them down. It's so irritating to see Christmas lights and santas still glowing in March.

So in case it's not obvious I am really looking forward to spring. I can't wait to see everything in bloom. Especially the new daffodils I planted this fall to commemorate my survival. In the meantime I will try to stay warm until April.

Emerson

January 2, 2012



Another quote from Emerson. "An ounce of action is worth a ton of theory." I love that! My own schtick is "Less talk, more work." I've noticed the amount of time spent in meetings and discussions on how things should be done far outweighs the benefits of simple action. Everyone is so worried about being responsible for decision making that instead of being leaders they make all decisions seem like a team vote.

Someone has to take charge. There is nothing wrong with saying "I am the boss and/or the parent!!!" Take a stand. Defend your beliefs and actions. Some people spend longer explaining why they CAN'T do something than it would have taken to just do it. As Nike says, "Just Do It." But do what is right. As long as you do that you really can't make a mistake. And if you do then you start over. But for God sake make a DECISION.

That goes for your personal life as well. Instead of agonizing over issues take a step forward. It is okay to apologize. I do it all the time! Life is short. "Just Do It."

Welcome 2013!!!

January 1, 2012



Jennie always used to sweep the old year out the back door with a broom. This year I wanted to hire a bulldozer! I made it home from work just in time to use a VERY big broom.


Please 2013, be way better than last year. Time has certainly made it easier to get up in the morning but has done nothing for the sadness that is constantly present. And from what I can see from my divorced friends that will always be a part of me. I am a different person from last year. Not better or worse but different. This will always be a part of my personality and color the way I interact with the world. Some days I am excited about the new things I've done and the people I've met along this journey and other days I long for my old life.

So if I could offer advice for anyone starting on this road it is "be good to yourself." Some days will be easier than others. Some days you will be sucker punched by emotion. The feelings of rejection and failure are sometimes as fresh today as they were a year ago. Cry if you have to or scream if that makes you feel better. Try not to do either one in public though! (I'm sure Target has my picture posted somewhere to warn their employees.)

Force yourself to go out and do new things and meet new people when you feel able. Listen to your gut and do whatever it takes to get through the day. You will be amazed at the support you will receive sometimes from the most unexpected places. Try to figure out what makes you happy and just go ahead and do that. And of course take care of your legal and financial issues as soon as possible. Cheaters never really change so don't expect to reconcile, no matter how much you try.

But above all, know that you will survive. You will join the human race again. You will laugh and be able to engage in life. You WILL have fun again. Take care of yourself. And remember looking and feeling good about yourself is the best revenge!!

Happy New Year.